It has been about three weeks since we found out we were pregnant again. We weren't really trying to have another but we weren't stopping it either, we figured we wouldn't prevent it and it would happen when it was right. It just so happens it happened a lot faster than we thought. So it was the beginning of April when I started thinking that I was pregnant. I was going to wait a little bit to take a test, but I'm not very good at waiting so April 2nd I went to the gym and on the way home I texted Greg to see if I should get a home pregnancy test. He said it was up to me, therefore I got one. I took the test waiting on the bed with Alivia and then Greg went into the bathroom to see the results. He sounded really calm and then said "what is it supposed to say?" and I told him either "pregnant" or "not pregnant" and he so calmly said "it says pregnant." I didn't know whether to believe him or not. I was having mixed emotions this whole time. Part of me was getting excited because I was feeling baby hungry for awhile. The other part of me was scared to death of raising two kids and I also felt bad that Alivia wouldn't get all our attention anymore, but then I know I'd be kind of heartbroken if it was negative. So I went into the bathroom to see for myself and he wasn't lying it said "pregnant" the first words that came out of my mouth were "holy crap!" I know not the best words to say but I had so many different feelings going on inside. I was excited, yet scared. I actually kind of struggled with the idea of having another baby for a few days. I was just sad that in 8 months or so Alivia would have to share her attention and time and I wouldn't be able to give all my focus and attention to her, but I know it will be good and I'm getting more excited as the days go on.
The sad thing is just about a month before all this Ney and Lynn told us they were expecting and would be due the end of October. So this would make our babies about 6 weeks apart or so, but just a few days after us finding out we were pregnant they found out that Ney miscarried. We felt bad for them because of how hard that would be to be so excited to welcome a baby and then have it just go away like that. I can't imagine how hard that would be to go through. We were also sad because we were excited to have babies so close together. I hope that they can get pregnant again soon.
Just last week we went to lunch with Barry and Megan Schenk and they told us that they are expecting and they are due end of November or beginning of December. We are excited for them, they have been trying for some time. This will be their second baby. I was excited that we were due about the same time, but we haven't told anyone yet and we wanted that moment to be theirs.
Anyway so that is how we found out. It's weird because I don't feel pregnant at all, I didn't really with Alivia either. Which is nice but it's also scary to me cause I feel more paranoid that I'll miscarry.
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